Comfortably Numb...

I was driving today and listening to the radio when Pink Floyd's song Comfortably Numb comes on... I must admit... I felt saddened by this song, not because of what it says or anything, but for the fact that I wish I were numb... I am so totally tired of feeling so sad and miserable, I just wish all of that would go away... Honestly right now, i wish i were numb, atleast then it would be easier to get through the day without breaking down into tears at school, I surpress it all day, which just tends to make it worse, and then I break down every night :(... Sometimes i do breakdown at school, but usually only when no one is really around to see it... If i feel like i am going to break down though, i usually just leave early... I am just so tired of constantly being on the verge of tears, and so many things remind me of him... I will be doing somewhat ok, then i see/hear/smell/think something and boom im down for the count... I just want it all to go away, I would much rather feel nothing...

Hello.
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me.
Is there anyone home?

Come on, now.
I hear you’re feeling down.
Well I can ease your pain,
Get you on your feet again.

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I can’t explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

Ok.
Just a little pinprick. [ping]
There’ll be no more --aaaaaahhhhh!
But you may feel a little sick.

Can you stand up?
I do believe it’s working. good.
That’ll keep you going for the show.
Come on it’s time to go.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.