So, I know that I have not been posting things regularly, but I have been so so busy. The amount of reading I am doing for my geology of the marsh class is insane, and thats on top of reading for my prospectus, and writing the damb thing!!! I have about 97 pgs worth of reading to do for wed, and I am supposed to go through these 4 text books and find stuff for us to read for next monday (she wants this on wed), and she wants me to outline my prospectus for her. Normally this would not be that big of a deal, i would just spend some late nights at school and get everything done. But right now that is not an option. I am still driving to and from Hattiesburg everday, we are filling up on gas every other day... so to drive my own car is not a finicial option!!! So everyday we leave at 7:00am and get to school around 8:10-8:30 depending on traffic. Then everyday at about 4:30-5:00 we leave and get to the dorms around 6:00-6:30, it takes longer in the afternoon because of Hattiesburg traffic :(. By this point i am exhausted and really cant function mentally enough to do much of anything, but I still have to read, so I do. But of course since my mind is fully not there it takes a little longer than it normally would :(. So, i am just mentally and physicaly exhausted!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So in addition to being exhausted i am generally just anoyed and synical. I am tired of everyone complaining about "losing everything", especially since those complaining about losing everything didnt lose everything. Those complaining are the ones who might have had a little water damage but were able to salvage most everything. Yes they may not beable to move back into their homes yet (but they will within the next couple of months), but they have not lost everything. And then there are people like me who basically lost everything and whos place is going to have to be demolished and rebuilg (if the people i rent from decide to do it), so those of us who have the right to complain are not. So, it is just pissing me off. If i hear one more person say "i dont know what i am going to do" and other things along those lines, i am gonna explode. What do you mean you dont know what you are going to do, you are gonna stay where you are living for another month, and once they repair the roof damage or the small leaks you are going to move back in and everything will be fine. Yes you may have to buy one or two new things but thats it!!!!!!! I have had to start completely over. Anytime I need anything (such as a laundry basket, plates, cups, clothes for a meeting, tennis shoes) I have to go out and buy it. So i am just frustrated with them.
And then I was in my office today and my office mate was telling me about how she and some of the other students did their "good deeds" buy going and helping some family clear out there house and move things out of students houses. I was supposed to help with this, but then on friday realized that I really didnt want to help this group of students. This is a group who would only help me if i helped them, and i doubt they would help me if i needed to move stuff out of my house. She was telling me about how horrible this family's house was and how they lost everything and how she felt so bad for them etc... now mind you their house is just like my house and they lost everything just like i did, however their situtation is apparently much worse because they had lived their longer. WHAT THE FUCK!! Everything I owned was in that apartment, I dont have stuff with my mom anymore. I have been living fully on my own for a while now, so when I say I lost all my stuff (except the bag of clothes and photos that evacuated with me) that means I have lost everything!!! And then she was like well you know they had older stuff and what not and how i was still "mobile", i then looked at her and said "I had furniture that belonged to my great grandmother, i had books that were my mom's and dad's from when they were children. So dont you fucking dare tell me I didnt loose anything of importance!!!! So, nedless to say i am not happy!!!!!!and I am greatly frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh another great thing is that the insurance company royaly screwed me!!!!!!!!!!! Apparently I dont qualify for anything, my place was flooded, even though there was rain damage and obvious wind damage, since everything got flooded, then everything was destroyed by the flood. Now if you ask me everything was destroyed by the hurricane!! Katrina caused a storm surge, and that is what destroyed my place, it was not flooding like in new orleans. Apparently the insurance people do not agree with my opinion of what happened, even though i am right!!! So, now I have to wait for FEMA! YAY FEMA!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully they will treat me well :)... Thats another thing that is pissing me off!!!Some of the students are aplying for FEMA even though they had minute damages. That just pisses me off. Ok, if you were displaced, then fine file for FEMA displacement, but dont sign up for more than that!! That is just taking money away from people like me who know have nothing!!!!!!!!!!! So, if you are lying to FEMA YOU SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i dont like you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and Karma will come back and kick you in the ass!!!!!
Another thing that is bothering me (i apologize for the length of this rant) is that everyone is telling me what I need to do!! Ray keeps telling me that I need to sign up for money from the red cross. Ok that fine, but i keep telling him that I dont have the 3 hours to waist to wait in line for my red cross aplication, and then another 3 hours to wait to go pick up my check on another day. He was like well i got mine, so why didnt he tell me he was going. Well apparently he found out last minute, so it would have been to much to walk down the hallway and tell me that they were taking new people. Thats the other thing, they are not consistently around they move from place to place, so its hard to find a time to go that they are there. But ray basically yealled at me for not having applied yet! And why the hell is he signing up, his place wasnt damaged at all, he cant live there (only because there is no power or water yet) he is living with us up in Hattiesburg and is driving the other van. So why does he need this money??? He got 4,300 from FEMA, so why does he need the extra money??? And he is just in addition to my mom and the rest of the comitte telling me what i need to do, they are all so far removed from this, how the hell do they know what i need to do?? Out of everyone I know there are only two people right now who i dont mind listening to their advice/comments, SO everybody else just shut up. And i know the people who normally read this are not telling me what to do, but it makes me feel better to rant, so thank you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh well, thanks for letting me rant, and i dont feel like running spell check, so I apologize, and thanks for letting me bitch!!!!!!!!! There are more pics up on my webshots page... enjoy :)
