Whats going on.....

well things are starting to lighten up -- but i think that is mainly because i will be running away from mississippi for a little while. Ive been going out into the marsh alot lately which always aids in increasing my sanity. Most people hate the "marsh smell" but it is quite comforting and makes me happy, and then playing in the mud is always great. Charlotte gives me a hard time (kidding of course) because i always seem to pick the muddier path :). anyway so charlotte is going out of town for a few days this week, so i am running away to see john in tampa, it will be good to get away from all of this... and i miss john madley so being there will make me much happier. So while he is at work on thurs and friday i can get school stuff done, and then sat/sun ill help clean up the apartment because his parents are coming down for turkey day. So then ill come back to mississippi sun, and then drive back down for turkey day. If only i didnt have to go to class mon/tues before turkey day -- it would make it so much easier. oh well... so for two weeks there will be sanity :) and right now that is needed more than anything!! So well thats whats going on

drowning :(

ok, so i feel as if im drowning... everything is just piling up... so i have moved into a new apartmetn, slightly furnished, but i still have alot to buy -- such as a sweater or jacket (its getting cold), i just ordered dishes, i had to spend 3 hours in wallyworld the other day because i needed to buy sissors. my insurance company screwed me, and i havent heard from FEMA -- its just a big waiting game, so i have no idea if i am going to be getting any money from them or not:(.... so i have all this stuff to buy -- just for normal every day life -- im not talking anything fancey now... and i have to buy it on my normal pay which itself just barley covers my bills -- and with gas prices the way they are, that cuts into my food money, so how the hell am i supposed to buy any of the stuff i need, and its too late in the semester for a student loan, i can get one next semester but what am i to do till then... i just dont know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then, charlotte tells me she wants me to present something at MAS (mississippi academy of science), and what she wants me to present has nothing to do with my thesis. she tells me this the day before the abstract is due, luckely she says she doesnt mind paying the late fee (only 10 dollars). now she wants me to give a talk about how katrina has affected the marsh... the meeting is in febuary -- totally duable, but i have to write this bloody abstract with no data, ive looked at images and seen the marsh first hand -- but that is about it! So luckely i have my BS, so hopefully i can make something out of nothing!!! and not sound like a complete moron at the same time!!!!!!!!!!!

Then i have to write this stupid prospectus, everything that i come up with that i like, charlotte shoots down:(... i need to start sampling, but for what purpose i dont, know.... hopefully we will agree on something soon.

i am also tired of mississippi, i am tired of being asked "how did your place do", and "what are you gonna do", and "do you need anything"... my place is no more, i dont know what i am gonna do, and i need money -- in large amounts!!!!!!!!!!!! -- ive calculated its gonna cost me about $2000 to replace most of my field gear, and thats assuming i can find some stuff on sale or used or just not replace all of it... and this is stuff i use pretty regularly :(...I am tired of driving past destroyed buildings on my way to and from school every day... im tired of the electricity and phones at school being on and off again because of repairs, i am tired of whenever i need something i have to go to wallworld -- where i loose 3 hours of my life because walmart is only open to 7 and everyone else is there as well trying to buy the same things you are -- but there are only 3 left and 50 of you need them, i am tired of people asking me "are you all right?", i am tired of being told that "you are loosing weight" -- who the fuck cares!!!!!!!!!! that is the least of my worries, i am tired of not being able to sleep, i am tired of being here alone, i am i am TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Right now all i want to do is run away to Tampa and be with john... I am happy there, there are no problems, no worries, and none of the above crap to deal with, i can read and write while he is at work and be with him when hes not... honestly that is the only place i want to be right now ---- I am so much happier with him near!!!!

NOOOO!!!

Ok, so I have been putting off reading the newest Harry potter book because I knew it would suck me in and that I wouldn't do the real reading (school stuff) that I have to do. But... Thursday I wasn't feeling well so I stayed home, so I read a little bit... Mostly slept. .. and then between last night and tonight I finished the book... Well I haven't been sleeping well anyway so might as well occupy my mind... and all I can say is

I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT DUMBLEDORE IS DEAD!!
he will be coming back to life --

Guavaween 2005

I would have posted these earlier, but the pics were just sent to me... Halloween at Guavaween. Steve (the pimp), John (the decapitated butler), I (the slutty maid, or well slightly slutty, my behind wasnt hanging out -- so not officially slutty)... anyway here are some of my fav pics. Mind you steve and john are the only ones i know, everyone else well... no clue... here are just some of the pics, there are many many more, and i am gonna put them up on my webshots pg in the next couple of days... anyway enjoy -- feel free to laugh and please comment...:)

oh and here is a good website with some more guavaween pics on it -- there are some great costumes :)

Sorry:(

Hey -- i apologize for anyone who actually reads this on a regular basis, but i am sort of playing with the layout of this thing... so if you try to read this and stuff is not coming up properly or what not, its just me playing with the way it looks... also, once ive had something up for a while, if there are any problems (like you can read the text on the particular background) let me know, and i will see what i can do :)... in other words, i have alot of writing to do and i need something to procrastinate with that i can stop and start... so playing with the way my blog looks is a great solution !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Oh and steve... do i know you???... just curiosity killing the cat :)

fat ass

So apparently i am "waisting away" or at least that is what JoAnne one of the secretaries told me. Apparently it appears that i have lost a bit of weight because she is like the 3rd person to basically tell me that i look like i have lost weight. And then they ask me how i am doing it... ok how is one supposed to answer that question. If you ask me i have if anything gained weight. I havent been to the gym or been eating properly since i evacuated, and the normal test for determining if i have gained wait (trying on different pairs of jeans to see which ones fit and which ones dont) doesnt apply anymore since those jeans no longer are in my possession (stupid katrina). Eating out for almost every meal is a great way to pack on a few pounds... so if anything i need to hit the gym and start eating healthy. So my answer for the "how have you lost weight" question has been, stress lots and lots of stress. It sounds like a good answer to me:).

amanda said i had to post this ....:)

A promise is a promise
Leave your name and:
1. i'll respond with something random about you.
2. i'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. i'll tell you what color you remind me of.
4. i'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. i'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
8. if i do this for you, you must post this on your blog.

Drunks with guns :)

ahh you gotta love living in the south :)(the guys on the right are the panseys with little guns :))

WOO HOO!!

So today is a great day!! I got a new computer at school :), and its an IBM. So now when i start my computer it wont growl at me for 30 min and I can now run more than one application at a time!! Woo Hoo! Ok ill write more and update yall later, i gotta run to the library --

:)

I got roses today -- well eveyone here got roses today -- apparently someone from NAVO who works with megan (student who graduated last year) got about 12 dozen roses from someone and didn't want them (megan refuses to give more details than that) -- so megan was given the task of giving them out -- so yay I now have pretty roses on my desk (red and yellow), they are a little wilted, but considering the distance they probably had to come from they look really nice -- im surprised they were able to deliver flowers down here, especially since many places refuse to ship here -- oh well -- pretty flowers always brighten ones day :). Maybe next time the anonymous person will get sunflowers or lilacs, those are more up my alley :)

gotta love...

BUSH

http://politicalhumor.about.com/library/images/blbushpictures.htm

if you like bush dont go to the above link, otherwise enjoy :)

New Home

ok the title is a little missleading, I do not have a new home, i have a new place to crash. I am moving in with Charlotte and her husband Allan :). Only a 15 minute drive:), ahh i can feel my sanity coming back already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(not totally, just partially :))

Jenny's Rant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I know that I have not been posting things regularly, but I have been so so busy. The amount of reading I am doing for my geology of the marsh class is insane, and thats on top of reading for my prospectus, and writing the damb thing!!! I have about 97 pgs worth of reading to do for wed, and I am supposed to go through these 4 text books and find stuff for us to read for next monday (she wants this on wed), and she wants me to outline my prospectus for her. Normally this would not be that big of a deal, i would just spend some late nights at school and get everything done. But right now that is not an option. I am still driving to and from Hattiesburg everday, we are filling up on gas every other day... so to drive my own car is not a finicial option!!! So everyday we leave at 7:00am and get to school around 8:10-8:30 depending on traffic. Then everyday at about 4:30-5:00 we leave and get to the dorms around 6:00-6:30, it takes longer in the afternoon because of Hattiesburg traffic :(. By this point i am exhausted and really cant function mentally enough to do much of anything, but I still have to read, so I do. But of course since my mind is fully not there it takes a little longer than it normally would :(. So, i am just mentally and physicaly exhausted!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So in addition to being exhausted i am generally just anoyed and synical. I am tired of everyone complaining about "losing everything", especially since those complaining about losing everything didnt lose everything. Those complaining are the ones who might have had a little water damage but were able to salvage most everything. Yes they may not beable to move back into their homes yet (but they will within the next couple of months), but they have not lost everything. And then there are people like me who basically lost everything and whos place is going to have to be demolished and rebuilg (if the people i rent from decide to do it), so those of us who have the right to complain are not. So, it is just pissing me off. If i hear one more person say "i dont know what i am going to do" and other things along those lines, i am gonna explode. What do you mean you dont know what you are going to do, you are gonna stay where you are living for another month, and once they repair the roof damage or the small leaks you are going to move back in and everything will be fine. Yes you may have to buy one or two new things but thats it!!!!!!! I have had to start completely over. Anytime I need anything (such as a laundry basket, plates, cups, clothes for a meeting, tennis shoes) I have to go out and buy it. So i am just frustrated with them.

And then I was in my office today and my office mate was telling me about how she and some of the other students did their "good deeds" buy going and helping some family clear out there house and move things out of students houses. I was supposed to help with this, but then on friday realized that I really didnt want to help this group of students. This is a group who would only help me if i helped them, and i doubt they would help me if i needed to move stuff out of my house. She was telling me about how horrible this family's house was and how they lost everything and how she felt so bad for them etc... now mind you their house is just like my house and they lost everything just like i did, however their situtation is apparently much worse because they had lived their longer. WHAT THE FUCK!! Everything I owned was in that apartment, I dont have stuff with my mom anymore. I have been living fully on my own for a while now, so when I say I lost all my stuff (except the bag of clothes and photos that evacuated with me) that means I have lost everything!!! And then she was like well you know they had older stuff and what not and how i was still "mobile", i then looked at her and said "I had furniture that belonged to my great grandmother, i had books that were my mom's and dad's from when they were children. So dont you fucking dare tell me I didnt loose anything of importance!!!! So, nedless to say i am not happy!!!!!!and I am greatly frustrated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh another great thing is that the insurance company royaly screwed me!!!!!!!!!!! Apparently I dont qualify for anything, my place was flooded, even though there was rain damage and obvious wind damage, since everything got flooded, then everything was destroyed by the flood. Now if you ask me everything was destroyed by the hurricane!! Katrina caused a storm surge, and that is what destroyed my place, it was not flooding like in new orleans. Apparently the insurance people do not agree with my opinion of what happened, even though i am right!!! So, now I have to wait for FEMA! YAY FEMA!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully they will treat me well :)... Thats another thing that is pissing me off!!!Some of the students are aplying for FEMA even though they had minute damages. That just pisses me off. Ok, if you were displaced, then fine file for FEMA displacement, but dont sign up for more than that!! That is just taking money away from people like me who know have nothing!!!!!!!!!!! So, if you are lying to FEMA YOU SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i dont like you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and Karma will come back and kick you in the ass!!!!!

Another thing that is bothering me (i apologize for the length of this rant) is that everyone is telling me what I need to do!! Ray keeps telling me that I need to sign up for money from the red cross. Ok that fine, but i keep telling him that I dont have the 3 hours to waist to wait in line for my red cross aplication, and then another 3 hours to wait to go pick up my check on another day. He was like well i got mine, so why didnt he tell me he was going. Well apparently he found out last minute, so it would have been to much to walk down the hallway and tell me that they were taking new people. Thats the other thing, they are not consistently around they move from place to place, so its hard to find a time to go that they are there. But ray basically yealled at me for not having applied yet! And why the hell is he signing up, his place wasnt damaged at all, he cant live there (only because there is no power or water yet) he is living with us up in Hattiesburg and is driving the other van. So why does he need this money??? He got 4,300 from FEMA, so why does he need the extra money??? And he is just in addition to my mom and the rest of the comitte telling me what i need to do, they are all so far removed from this, how the hell do they know what i need to do?? Out of everyone I know there are only two people right now who i dont mind listening to their advice/comments, SO everybody else just shut up. And i know the people who normally read this are not telling me what to do, but it makes me feel better to rant, so thank you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh well, thanks for letting me rant, and i dont feel like running spell check, so I apologize, and thanks for letting me bitch!!!!!!!!! There are more pics up on my webshots page... enjoy :)

Katrina storm pics

I feel like a soccer mom!!!!!

Hi everybody!! I know it has been a while since I have posted, but things have been very hectic here. Well, I am back in Mississippi, living in Hattiesburg where the main campus of USM is located. Its about an 1 hour 10 min drive. The university has put us up in the family housing dorms, mind you I had told myself that I would never live in a dorm again, and these were getting ready to be tourn down, so they are not the nicest. And they are right across from frat row :(, now some of the students here were like, yay that sounds great!! They obviously do not know me!! First, I am not big into the frat boys, 2nd saturday all i could hear was there loud music playing (it sounded like i had a sterio turned all the way up in my dorm room :( ). I walked into this place and it was like a scarry freshman year flashback, but i didnt have all the cool new stuff this time. The apt came with a bed, fridge stove, it lacks a kitchen sink however, so dishes are washed in the bathroom sink, atleast there is a bathroom sink. So i had to go out and buy a shower curtain and all that kind of stuff and lots and lots of antibacterial stuff and bleach!! But its a place to stay for free and it is not a tent, so its not so bad. There is however a long drive (hence the soccer mom comment). The university is allowing us to use two departmental vans to transport the students back and forth (so we dont have to pay), which is very nice of them. And the majority of the students up there are the foreign national students who either cant drive or can drive but because of insurance purposes cant drive the departmental vans. So, everymorning both vans load up and i ask everyone if they have their badges (and usually someone has to go get it), so i totally feel like a soccer mom with kids, then it is off to starbucks so i can wake up, and then drive then begins. It kills so much of the day, it rather sucks, but i like to drive, I cant read or write in a car (i get sick), so atleast driving gives me something to do!

Anyway, cell phones still dont work here -- it took me 4 days to get in contact with my mom, so many towers were destroyed that its hard to get throught. If anyone has called me -- i dont know it, because my phone doesnt give me my messages till like 4 or 5 days later. Now every once in a while it works ok, but not very often.

Then there is the internet, the buildings here do not have ac, so the internet stuff and servers can not be run all day, because of them over heating -- so we have limited internet access... depending on how hot the building gets and what not. It should be fixed sometime this week -- Oh I hope it gets fixed, it is hot as hell in here!

Anyway, my days are filled with catch up for class, lots of reading and trying to repair this place. A good bit of the labs and offices were damaged, so charlotte's (my advisor) office is in the hallway across from my office. so things are quite hectic.

well thats a quick update -- ill do more later when i have time